Chapter 11: Down with the Queen

I'm pacin' in Dawnie's room. I dunno what to do with myself. B should be back soon with the others and I don't know what I'm gonna do.

What I'm mainly worried about, is if I see her and I'm scared as shit to be near her. I'm kinda thinkin' I might be. Ya know, like a kid who gets beat all the time, worried about when the grown up is gonna just haul off and slap ‘em. Mostly a kid is afraid ‘cause they feel helpless. And that's the real problem.

I feel helpless around Buffy. Like she could do anything to me and I'd just let her. No one should have that kind of power over anyone else. And believe me, it's not something that I want anyone to have, but I've never been able to be any other way with B. Although I doubt she ever knew that, and believe me I don't plan on tellin' her any time soon either.

I see a book that looks like a photo album on Dawn's shelf. I flip through a few dozen pages of her and her friends at school and some of the slayer friends she's made here. Then I see a picture that has my heart racin'. It looks like a picture that must have been taken on Halloween. B's got a dark wig on and her makeup is all dark, she's lookin' away from the camera with a serious look on her face, like she's some high class model.

God damn she's gorgeous. I didn't realize her eyes could look that green. I know at times they're green tinged ‘cause she's got hazel eyes and they can be brown and green and sometimes even beige, yeah it's freaky when they look like that. I know she'd never believe I know what eye color she has, but I do. Knew it the minute I met her, that was the second thing I noticed about her, first thing was the tits. I said I was a horn dog.

Her lips are a glossy black and I just want to lick and nibble ‘em. I also get an urge to kiss her cute little nose, even though she'd say not to call attention to it because she thinks it looks stupid. We had a few arguments about her nose on patrol before. I tried not to sound like I cared about what it looked like, but secretly I wanted to tell her I'd fuckin' die just to be able to kiss her nose and that I thought it was fuckin' adorable. So anyway, she'd ask me what she should do with it, get it fixed or whatnot and I would tell her it's just a nose, why would you spend all that money fixin' it, and she'd get all pissed sayin' I wasn't listenin' to anything she said. Those were fun times.

I'm so caught up in lookin' at the picture that I don't even notice someone has come in the room and is now lookin' over my shoulder. Fuck, Will must've given them all stealth spells.

"Dawn took that last year, on Halloween. She thought I looked like that girl from the ‘Sour Girl' video."

I flinch just a little hearin' her voice. My heart which was already beatin' faster at seein' her picture is doin' triple time. I hope it doesn't explode.

"Then she said it was something you would go dressed as, and suddenly it's exactly what I wanted to wear for Halloween." She laughs then goes quiet. "I didn't know if you'd want to see me, but I needed to see you."

I don't know what to do with myself so I stay still. I keep lookin' at her picture; she dressed up like this because she thought I would have. I wonder briefly if I should tell her I did wear that exact same costume to a party once. The song was popular at the time and I needed a costume and someone suggested I go all goth. Hence the costume.

Damn, she wore somethin' to be like me. A feelin' of wantin' to hold her comes over me. Guess that means I'm not traumatized by her, good to know.

"I'm glad you're still here, I thought you might have run far from here; far from me..." She trails off.

I feel kinda awkward standin' here like this, with her lookin' around my shoulder, but somethin' tells me she doesn't want to be face to face yet. I dunno, I'm feelin' all instinctual right now.

She reaches out and rubs my arm. I don't stiffen. "I thought you might like this sweatshirt. I hope you don't mind that it used to be mine."

So the Ireland hoodie was given to me by B, and it used to be hers. Interestin'.

She chuckles a bit, "I bet you didn't think I knew your last name."

I shrug and shake my head no.

"I drilled Angel for it, threatened to dust him if he didn't give it up. Of course I was just kidding around but one day he slipped and it came out. He told me it was Irish in origin. I didn't know you were Irish."

Ya don't really know shit about me B and ya never asked. Not like I ever asked you what you were either.

She brings her hand up to my shoulder and then down between my shoulder blades, givin' me a mini massage. That feels fuckin' great.

I sigh out.

I can hear her start to cry. Oh fuck, I don't want her to cry! I have a feelin' it'll make me start bawlin' and I don't want to be that vulnerable right now.

"I'm so sorry, Faith. I know you probably don't believe me but I am; I don't know what came over me the other night."

I put the book down and turn around facin' her.

Shit, I wish I could talk without soundin' like a fuckin' dumbass. Makes me wanna rip the pins out again, but besides the fact that Buffy would be grossed the fuck out, Dana would seriously kick my ass.

Shoulda learned sign language, and taught it to B, not like we were doin' anything constructive at Giles' meetin's back in the ‘Dale.

She's lookin' up at my jaw, probably to see if it's permanently damaged, at least on the outside. She brings up her arm and tentatively reaches out with a shaky hand.

Buffy's nervous, never thought I'd see that when it was just me an' her, she's usually so confident and sure around me. I wonder if she's been puttin' on an act around me all this time, just like I've been doin' with her.

I take her hand in mine and bring it up to my face. She takes over, rubs my cheek lightly, and then smoothes the skin over my jaw and chin.

"Oh, God, Faith. I'm so, so sorry." She takes her hand away and turns around, she's startin' to leave when I catch her around her shoulders. I don't turn her around; again, somethin' tells me she's too afraid to look me in the face. I back us up until I'm sittin' on the end of Dawn's bed, I let go of B and scoot up until I can feel my back hit the head board. She turns around to look at me. She's decidin' whether or not she should stay and not talk. ‘Cause shit, I don't know how we're gonna communicate.

"Do you mind if I sit up there with you?"

I shake my head.

She gets a small smile on her face then looks confused, "Wait, ‘No', you don't want me to sit up there, or ‘no' you don't mind?"

Fuckin' hell, B!!! She catches the look on my face and blushes and smiles through her tears. "Sorry, I'm just nervous." God damn, I just got another one of those heart pangs, she's is gonna be the death of me. But hopefully it will be from her givin' me head and not her beheadin' me. Damn, I'm gettin' horny, how fucked up is that? I got to keep it in check, we're tryin' to let our demons go here. At least I am.

I pat the bed. Get the fuck up here before I lose my nerve.

She hops up on the bed and looks like she can't decide where to sit, I point to between my legs and she quirks an eyebrow.

I narrow my eyes at her and she give me a questionin' look.

I give her a ‘get over here' nod of my head. She crawls up the bed and shit, my pussy fuckin' responds to that. God Damnit! Doesn't it know we're not gettin' lucky here, we're bearin' our souls, or tryin' ta do some shit like that anyway. I think about Andrew and my desire becomes less, quickly.

I point again to the area between my legs and she kneels in between them. She's so freakin' nervous she's shakin'. I reach out to her and turn her around, then I bring her towards me so her back is restin' up against my front. I breathe in the shampoo scent from her hair and it calms me. Never had that happen with anyone before. Of course I've never done anything like this with anyone before but, ya know, whatever. Closest I ever came was with Angel when I wanted him to kill me.

We're quiet for a while. She's still a bit nervous, she's been tryin' to find a comfortable place for her hands for a coupla minutes now. I don't know why I want to comfort her so much, she did almost fuckin' end me the other night.

Dawn and Xander's words come back to me, and I feel confident. Then I think about the fact that when she doesn't know how to act around me she gets violent. If nothin' else happens out of us lettin' our demons go tonight, that shit's gonna stop for sure. No more Faith as a punchin' bag for Buffy. She's wants to spar, cool, but no fuckin' punchin' me for sayin' ‘Hi', or ‘Hey' or any other stupid shit like that.

I reach around her and give her my hand, she takes it then seems to instantly calm. Good, don't need a skittish Buffy. She lets out a sigh and clasps her other hand around mine. I can feel her gatherin' strength for somethin'. I really hope this shit doesn't backfire on me.

"I-I don't know what to say, Faith. When you came here the other night I was happy to see you."

Oh really? Shit, now I gotta watch my face for when she's happy, too?

"For like a split second, and then I just, you askin' about who Satsu was, it just..."

Yeah, she doesn't know what she wants to say. She's doin' better than I would be doin' though. I squeeze her hand a little.

"I thought you knew about her...about us and were making fun. I really didn't expect you to come into my room, I thought it was Willow coming in to tell us you guys had arrived."

Willow said I should wait for her to go in the room first, but I didn't listen, she shoulda told me about the whole Buffy/Satsu bit so I didn't fuckin' walk into a shit storm. Oh well, live and learn.

"I guess the slayer took over."

Fuck yeah she did!

"I promise you Faith, no matter what else happens, I'll never hit you like that again."

Good.

"Oh God! I sound like one of those guys who beats on their wives, ‘I'll never do it again sweetheart, trust me.'" She starts sniffin', shit she's gonna start wailin' any minute.

I let go of her hands and wrap my arms around her. Somethin' makes me wanna kiss the side of her head, I hope I don't get my ass handed to me, here goes nothin'.

She lets out a sigh when she feels my lips on the side of her head. I let my lips linger there for a moment or two. Some how I can feel her inner fears calmin' down, but her heart is startin' ta race a bit, I place my hand over it.

"You feel that Faith?"

I nod my head.

She's quiet for a moment, I can tell she wants to say somethin' though.

"It beats like that for you."

Shit, I wanna laugh, not because I feel bitter, but because it's fuckin' surreal, dude. It's almost like I'm watchin' a soap opera.

"Uhhhh, didn't mean for that to sound so cheesy. But...."

I shift her in my arms slightly and she turns her face towards me. She's waitin' for me ta give her a sign.

I lean in and give her a small kiss on the lips. Damn, lightnin' just fuckin' shot through me!

Her breathin' picks up and I can feel her heart beat goin' triple time under my hand. I guess the lightnin' didn't only hit me. Somethin' else that's good to know.

She narrows her eyes at my lips. Guess she's wonderin' if I put somethin' on ‘em to shock her with.

"Can we do that again?"

That makes me smile. I nod my head.

She leans in and kisses my lips gently, like she's tryin' it out. I can feel her want to deepen the kiss and really, how fuckin' cruel is it that I can't open my mouth?!

I can feel her lick my bottom lip, then she takes it into her mouth and sucks gently. God damn! That feels so fuckin' good. But shit, we shouldn't be doin' this, we need ta talk and know where we stand. Even though I usually jump full force into gettin' a fuck when I want it, I'm not gonna let that happen here. I want this ta work too much.

Yeah, that's right. Me. The ‘Get Some, Get Gone' girl wants a relationship that's not all fucked up and lasts an hour. Go fuckin' figure.

She licks and sucks my lip a little more and then lets it go with a sigh. She leans her head on mine and whispers, "Faith, that feels so, so good. But I don't know if we should be doing this, I might not want to stop and then we'd never talk about what we need to."

I sigh and nod my head.

"You feel it too?"

Another nod.

"Can I tell you something? And please don't laugh," I nod again. "I love you."

Shit, I can't believe she said it. Just like that. No dancin' around each other for days and then me goin' off to London without shit bein' resolved. But fuck it, I guess we've been dancin' around each other for years now, so I guess I should be sayin' ‘'Bout fuckin' time!!'. I wonder how long she's known she loved me. I've loved her from before I knew who she was. Never knew it was her I was lookin' for though. Until that time outside the Bronze; that was when I felt the lightnin' the first time.

"I can't pin point when it actually happened, but I know I've been in denial for a long time. Really bad denial, too."

She pulls back a little so she can see my face. I'm not sure if it's revealin' anything, but I want to tell her I feel the same.

She leans in and kisses my chin. That makes me smile a little.

"God, I love your dimples, and I love finally being able to say that. Your smile is so beautiful." B gives me her version of a beautiful smile.

Damn, my heart is clenchin', feels like someone's tryin' to squeeze the shit out of it.

Things go quiet again, and she gets a nervous look on her face, of course I haven't been able to say anything so she doesn't really know how I feel. Apart from the couple of kisses I gave her and the hand holdin' an' junk.

I shift us so I can see her more and so she can see my hand gesture. I give her the only sign language symbol I know, well except the one for ‘thank you'.

She smiles hugely and lets out a sob. "I love you, too. So, so much, Faith. I'm so sorry..."

I stop her from tryin' to blub more and give her the ‘one minute' symbol. I get up from behind her and go to Dawn's dresser. The thing Xander said was from Willow is here. I was gonna toss the fucker off the castle this mornin' but now I'm thinkin' it could come in handy.

I check to make sure it's in the right mode, but it really doesn't need ta be I guess, ‘cause everything that's in my head is exactly what's in my heart, and it's all gonna come out. Just tryin' to stop B from seein' the pervy stuff right now. Don't need this ruined by her seein' how much of a horny bitch I can be.

‘Cause yeah, while I say I don't want us to fuck tonight, doesn't mean I'm not thinkin' ‘bout us gettin' hot an' fuckin' heavy. I'll keep that shit to myself though.

She looks confused, God that's such an adorable look on her face. "You wanna play an electronic game?"

I chuckle and shake my head. I touch the screen and make sure it doesn't say anything stupid. ‘No, this will let us be able to talk, Willow sent it.'

"She's one clever witch, huh?"

‘Yeah, the cleverest.'

B smiles. "So..."

I touch the screen and hold it up to her. ‘So...'

She cracks up. "Does it have a button for ‘less awkward'?"

I let out my own version of a laugh and sit on the bed. She kneels up behind me and looks over my shoulder at the screen as I touch it.

‘When has anything been easy for us, B?'

"Never, it's never been easy."

‘So, let me make it simple. I'm not sure what you really want, but I'll tell ya I don't wanna fight anymore, that's for sure. No more fuckin' punch' and ask questions later. I mean it, B. No fuckin' more.'

"I know, Faith, really. I won't do that anymore, I promise."

‘It's not just you, Buffy. It's me makin' that promise, too. I've beat on you a few times before when I was frustrated, and I'm lettin' you know that shit ain't happenin' anymore. Not even a slap.'

I feel her nod her head in agreement. "Ok."

‘And don't take this the wrong way, but we can't be together just yet.'

I hear her breathin' increase and start to sound fucked up. I snap my fingers to get her attention and touch the screen again.

‘I said not to take it the wrong way!!'

"Well, I'm...I just thought...you're right." She sighs a sad soundin' sigh.

‘Look, we're gonna be together, that shit's a given. And just so we're on the same page, I wanna be with you. Do you want that?'

"Yes, more than anything."

I smile, ‘Well then we're gonna be. Can't let Princess Buffy not get somethin' she wants.' She snorts out a laugh and slaps me in the arm. She instantly stiffens. I can tell she thinks she just broke rule number one.

‘B, those are love taps, understand the difference?'

She nods, "Yes."

‘Good. Now, Giles has some business lined up for me to take care of in London. Probably gonna be about a week before the docs'll let me go. I don't know how long it's gonna take, and I don't wanna make any promises I can't keep. But if you still want to be together, then we'll work on it. How's that sound?'

"Sounds wonderful." She lets out another sob. "I'm so sorry, Faith." She looks away towards the wall.

I snap my fingers to get her attention again and touch the screen again. ‘No more sorrys, B. Otherwise we'll be here all fuckin' day. Let's just agree to forgive recent events, and some of the shit from the past, we'll work on the rest. But for the record, I'm sorry, too. For everything."

She wraps her arms around me and kisses me on the cheek, lettin' it linger.

"So what do we do now?"

‘We seal it with a fuck.'

She laughs and says, "You're so gonna get it!!" She pokes me in the side.

‘Yeah, I know, now strip.'

She pulls a pillow off the bed and soon we're in a full on pillow fight. All that needs to happen is for us to be scantily clad and feathers all flyin' and then Xander walkin' in and goin' blind in his other eye. I know he's got a fantasy about slayers and pillow fights and shit.

Soon someone knocks at the door and calls for B. Buffy looks like she just got caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Or in my jar of cookies. Heh. Damn, I want her so bad.

Must be Satsu. B looks at me like she doesn't know whether to answer the door or jump out the window.

I get the gadget. ‘You and her broke up?'

She nods and touches the screen. ‘She broke up with me, after I admitted to her that I loved you.' Damn, clever fuckin' gadget, her thoughts are in a different color. Black for me, red for her. Xander's color was blue. Heh. I shake those thoughts from my head.

‘So what's the big deal?'

‘I feel bad for her having to see us together.'

‘Somethin' tells me she's a pretty cool girl.' I shrug. ‘Do what ya gotta, I'll be here.'

She nods again and goes to the door.

"Hey Buffy, I came to talk to, Faith. Is that ok?"

Buffy looks at me. I nod.

Probably wants to give me some shit, I'm ready for it though, I feel bad for stealin' her girl and all, but since B's always been my girl I don't feel like I'm actually stealin'. I guess that doesn't make too much sense ta someone on the outside, but from where I'm sittin' it makes all the sense in the world.

"I'll be in the infirmary checking on the girls if you guys need me."

"Thanks Buffy, oh and tell Renee to stop trying to remove her bandage, she'll pull the stitches."

"Will do." B looks a little worriedly at me and I give her a reassuring wink and a smile. I want to blow her a kiss but that would just be bein' petty and I don't wanna do that to this girl.

"First off I know what you're thinking Faith and that's not why I'm here." Shit can everyone fuckin' read my mind or somethin'? Must be some stupid fuckin' ‘Slayer connection' thing. I quirk an eyebrow at her. "Let me explain."

I'm all ears.

"I kinda played this scenario out in my head already, and I put myself in your shoes, so I guess I think I know what you'd be thinking and how you'd be feeling."

Clever girl, I guess I'd probably do the same thing. What am I talkin' about?! I'd barge into the room, tell whoever that they weren't gettin' their greasy hands on my girl and then drag B off into the woods like a big ape. Call me Queen Kong.

"I came here to say that there are no hard feelings," She hesitates a moment tryin' ta gauge what's written on my face. "at least not on my part."

‘Same here.' Might as well put her at ease quickly.

"Good, because Andrew built me up with all this nonsense about what you were going to do to me, like slit my throat and that we'd probably end up ‘in a duel for the fair Buffy's virgin hand'. Andrew's kinda nuts, isn't he?" She's lookin' for validation, I guess everyone else has known him longer and just accepts his nuttiness, Satsu's still tryin' to figure him out.

‘Yeah, the nuttiest. Makes me look like the poster child for sanity.'

She laughs.

"I'm sorry about the other night." That makes me confused. What did she do? "I said that thing about you having ‘help' written all over you. I was feeling a bit petty."

Hmmm, must have been right after B gave me that mega uppercut to the jaw. Didn't even really remember it.

‘Didn't remember it until just now.' I get up off the bed, touch the screen and hold it out to her. ‘But now that you brought it up, let's go!' I feel like fuckin' with her a bit.

"You can't fool me." She laughs. "I can see that glint in your eye and it says you're kidding."

I guess she can read me pretty well. Chicks, huh?

"So, the other reason I'm here..."

I quirk an eyebrow.

"Mr. Giles mentioned that you guys'll be going to London for a mission." I nod my head, she's probably gonna tell me how she'll protect Buffy while I'm gone and that I have no worries about her musclin' in on my territory.

"I wanted to ask if I could come along." Or not.

I narrow my eyes at her.

"I would like to help out, he said it could be pretty dangerous." I'm impressed.

‘You sure? I mean don't you have stuff here you have to do?'

"Buffy's got it pretty well covered here, and besides for some reason I have a feeling she's not gonna be around here forever, someone's gonna need to run things here. I need to learn everything I can from the best that there is. I've learned a lot from Buffy, now I need to learn from you."

Wow, forget about me and B, I think I might fall in love with Satsu here.

‘As long as it's ok with the people here, I'm cool with it. I know Giles would love the extra help. He's probably tryin' to rope some other innocent slayer into coming.'

"Nah, I think he mentioned it to me because he thought I might take the bait."

‘Probably sees what everyone else does, you're one hell of a slayer.'

"Thanks, I'm still not there yet though."

‘You will be.'

Things get quiet for a bit, I know she wants to ask me some stuff she'll think I'll be mad about.

"I'm sure Dawn's already told you this, but if you hurt Buffy, I'm gonna come looking for you."

‘Yeah, I've heard that speech already. Don't worry, I don't plan on doin' any more stupid shit, mainly don't wanna ruin my chances with Buffy.'

"Good, she loves you a lot, ya know."

‘I'm gettin' that. Finally. I want to thank you, for...'

"Getting Buffy to admit to me what she wouldn't to herself?"

‘Well, yeah, that too. But thanks for breakin' through Buffy's straight barrier.' I chuckle.

She laughs. "Ummm, well... I uhhh."

‘Yeah, you thought I'd want to kick your ass for that, huh?' And I did when I first heard it, but now I'm glad she did, it brought us to where we are right now. Here's pretty good.

"Well, I'm not sure what I thought, but I didn't think you'd actually be happy about it."

‘Andrew had you riled up, huh?'

"He was trying to. Did you do something terrible to him?"

‘Stole his hot pocket.'

"OH MY GOD!!! I almost did that once and Kennedy saved me. I'm thinking I need to go buy her a present now. I didn't realize how protective he was over his hot pockets."

I snort out a laugh. She looks concerned. I like this girl.

"How long will you have your jaw wired shut?"

‘Doc said about another week, then she'd let me go. But I gotta promise not to do anything strenuous with my tongue.'

She gets a smartass look to her face. Oh I walked right into that fuckin' one!

"I'll leave that one alone, mostly because you probably will kick my ass for it. I'll just say that I wish you the best for the next week. I'll get ready to go to London. Let me know what I need to bring, if anything special. I'll go tell Mr. Giles the good news."

I stop her before she turns to leave. ‘Hey, I'm not really good at the social type of thing. Ya know, thankin' people and sayin' please and all. But I'm learnin'. I really wanna thank you for comin' here and talkin' to me, it took balls, and I can tell, if B does leave here, this place'll still run smoothly. I'm also pretty stoked that you're gonna help us in London. Thanks again.'

"It's me who should be thanking you, Faith. But you're welcome." She holds her hand out to me and I give it a good firm shake. "See you later."

‘Hey, and I'm sorry about stealin' your girl.' I add just because I think that should be said.

"She never was my girl, but don't worry. I'll heal, and you know what? There's no one like Buffy, and we'll still be friends but there are plenty of other chances for me to get my heart irreparably broken. If you want to have a hand in those too, let me know. We could schedule them."

She's a fuckin' smartass, and I love it!! I bring her closer for a quick hug.

"Hey! Is this appropriate? I mean technically you're my boss now. Plus I don't want Buffy, breaking my jaw."

Whoever told me this girl was mild mannered and quiet was completely fuckin' wrong. Must've been Trina, she thinks everyone's mild mannered and quiet in comparison to her. But I have a feelin' Satsu's quiet until she's comfortable with ya, then watch out!

She leaves and I feel like jumpin' for joy, but I'm not a dork, so I fuckin' do!!!!!!!!!!! Dawnie's bed is big enough for me to get all geeked out and I bounce around until I'm exhausted.

Glad to be in Scotland, glad to be with Buffy, glad to have someone help me and G...

And glad to be alive.

Oh fuck, Buffy!!!!!!!

She keeps lappin' at my clit even though I just had my second orgasm. I get an urge to pull her head away, but then I get an urge to come again so I let her stay where she is.

"MMmmmm, Faith baby, you taste so good." She winks at me and reaches up and tweaks a nipple.

I really wish I had these fuckin' pins out, Dana said not for another day or two, but it's already been a week and she said I could have ‘em out after a week!!

Buffy goes back to lickin' and lappin' at my clit and I can see her move her hand down between her legs. She's gettin' herself off. Oh man that's so fuckin' HOT!

She moans into my clit as she's touchin' hers. Her tongue picks up its pace, then it gets a little slower, she wants to draw this one out, guess she wants us to come together.

This is our first night gettin' hot and heavy. We did the courtship thing, at least the abbreviated version, but finally, she couldn't take it anymore and she jumped my bones about 20 minutes ago. She's been selfish, and won't let me touch her or nothin'. Bet she's worried about me findin' out about her big clit. I hafta mentally laugh, she doesn't fuckin' remember that I was in that sweet body for about 2 days. I took a bath and did everything in it. And I do mean, everything!

‘Course I would've sampled the goods, that's a no brainer. I was surprised about the clit at first but lemme tell ya, when they say "bigger is better", it's fuckin' true about clits! I almost screamed so loud when I came durin' that bath that I had to stick a wash cloth in my mouth. Otherwise Joyce woulda come rushin' in the bathroom and then Buffy would have been gettin' really weird looks from her Ma and wonderin' why after we switched back. I wasn't exactly in the water when I was fuckin' myself to that monster orgasm, I mean I started out in the bath and then got the urge to get out and bend over the tub, pretendin' I was fuckin' B from behind and she was somehow also fuckin' me. That was one fuckin' awesome experience I'll never forget.

Kinda like the ultimate 69.

Whew, that memory has me gettin' so fuckin' hot! I can tell my pussy is workin' double overtime ‘cause B's ‘mmmmin' and slurpin' all the juice it's producin'. She reaches up with her free hand and enters me gently with two fingers. I buck my hips into her wantin' her in deeper. I want her to do everything. I don't know what I want first. I know I want it all at once though. I want if fast, and slow, and gentle and hard, most of all I REALLY wanna be lickin' her too.

Stupid fuckin' pins!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh shit, I'm done for, she's suckin' my clit while she's fuckin' me with three fingers now. I put my hand on the back of her head and hold her to my pussy. My brain checks in and out as my orgasm is buildin' up, it spikes and I feel like I'm passin' out, then I come to a split second later and it starts all over again. Shit, I wonder if this is how I'll die. That would be fuckin' ironic, dude.

She reaches up with her hand that was just fuckin' herself and I she lifts her face off my pussy, I can see her smile and her ‘fuck that's so good' face as she grinds her clit on my leg. She rubs my clit with her come soaked hand and that does it. Just knowin' it's B's come on my clit and her hot wet pussy grindin' on my leg, puts me over the edge.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The scream I let out of my throat can probably be heard in Glasgow. Fuck, probably can be heard even back in good ol' Southie.

No one's gonna come rushin' in here though, they're all out on a mission with Giles. It's to get stuff for Christmas which is in about a week. B suggested it. Minx wanted me all to herself.

God damn!!! My brain is somewhere far, far away. Behind the moon -- beyond the rain...

I come to and Buffy's snuggled up to me, damn, I wonder how long I've been out. She's got us under the covers and she's tracin' a pattern on my skin. I can feel her breath on my nipple.

I can't talk, probably couldn't even if I didn't have the fuckin' pins in. I wanna ask her if she saw the jumbo jet before it crashed into the bed, but I have to settle for pinchin' her ass. She chuckles.

"Back from the land of nod?" She lifts her head and looks at me. Fuck, have I mentioned she's fuckin' beautiful? Her eyes are a dark green, just like in that picture from Halloween.

I breathe real deep and let out a long breath through my nose to try to calm my heart.

She's still smilin' and waitin' for somethin', probably waitin' for my eyes ta look like I'm actually alive.

"Was I good?"

HA!! Was she good?!?! I let out a snort. Shit, I need that gadget. I wanna tell her she's the best I ever had.

I give her a thumbs up.

"Yeah, I wanted to use my thumb too, but I didn't know if you'd like where I had in mind for it, so I decided against it. For now." She winks.

Brat!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously, I think I'm havin' a heart attack from that one. That's fuckin' hot dude. H O T!

"It's so much fun to see your thoughts on your face, Faith. I can guess we'll be doing that soon enough."

I reach down to her ass and stroke her cheeks. Yeah we will, Princess. She better get some lube, cause she's gonna really get the Faith treatment once I get my strength back.

"Mmmmm, feels so nice to be like this."

Finally.

"Finally."

Wow, we do think alike. Sweet. I hug her to me and squeeze a little. I breathe in again and I can smell what's distinctly her and me. Damn, that smells good. I can also smell some of her shampoo and again I have that calm feelin' comin' over me.

No, no sleep!! I blink my eyes furiously to get the sleep out of ‘em.

"Stop fighting it, baby. You need some sleep. You're leaving in a couple of days." She sounds so fuckin' sad when she says that, makes me wanna cry, too. "Let's not think about that though, we'll just get some sleep, you wore me out, by the way."

I did? Shit I didn't do nothin'. I wish I wore her out for like 10 hours. Just non-stop fuckin', that would be sweet.

"I came each time you did, you make me so hot, Faith. I love you."

I hold up my hand and give the ‘I love you' sign.

She kisses my hand and snuggles in close. She drifts off and I follow her right away.

I'd follow her anywhere now.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me....

~Somewhere Over the Rainbow- words and music by Harold Arlen and E.Y. Harburg; sung by Judy Garland

Two days later and B's still holdin' out on me touchin' her, well, it's not gonna be until I come back now, ‘cause unless she wants to get busy in front of Giles, Xander, Willow, Satsu and a bunch of strangers from Edinburgh. The officials at good ol' Waverly Station will probably kick us the fuck out. Not before they got enough video on their security cameras ta beat off with, though.

God, my brain is really fucked up.

B's clingin' to me as I say my goodbyes to the abbreviated version of the gang. But I have a feelin' this gang, along with Dawn, is gonna be my new family. We've been through so much already.

Willow pulls Buffy off me and says, "Let someone else have a turn." B pouts and Willow rolls her eyes at me. "I'm sorry we didn't have more time with each other, Faith. But you'll be coming back soon, right?"

"She better, or the Buffster will get all kindsa cranky." Xander chuckles.

Willow gives me another hug and whispers in my ear. "I'm so happy for you both. Stay safe, and if you need me just send me a text message. I'll be there in a jiffy!"

"Will do, uhhh Will, thanks." I wink at her.

Yeah, got the pins out yesterday. Mouth still kinda hurts, so B said I couldn't have a taste of her. She's such a spoil sport. Her fault I'm in this predicament, she's gonna get it when I get back.

Hope she likes 10 non stop hours of head, ‘cause I'm gonna keep her up for 20 hours, gettin' the ass, and givin' head. Sounds like a fuckin' plan.

Xander stands there lookin' a bit awkward, kinda like he doesn't believe he matters more in my life than he actually does.

I go over to him and give him the biggest bear hug he's ever had, barrin' any demons that mighta had him in one.

"I'll miss you most of all, Scarecrow." My voice wavers just a little.

"It was nothing, Dorothy, but that apple throwing from the talking trees I'd rather not repeat again." I put him down and look him in the eyes. I don't know if he meant the whole ‘trying to kill myself' incident, but I want him to know it won't happen again.

"I promise." I lean up on my tippy toes, can't there be a better word for that? Sounds too girly for me. Anyway, I lean up and plant a grateful kiss on his cheek. He pulls back and he's blushing.

"Uhh, is Buffy glaring at the back of my head? I feel glaring." He touches the hair at the back of his head.

I look over at B who was just glarin' like Xander said and she lets out a laugh ‘cause she spotted me lookin' and she's busted. I love when she gets that look and laughs and rolls her eyes.

Fuckin' beautiful.

I reach for her and she looks a little upset. She better not fuckin' cry, I don't wanna start bawlin' in front of a bunch of tourists with Birkenstocks and fanny packs. Man, these theater geeks are nuts. Birkenstocks and fuckin' wool socks in the middle of fuckin' December. Crazy!

Anyway, B makes her way over to me and I wrap her up in a tight hug.

Her voice breaks as she whispers next to my ear. "You'll be back before you know it. Stay safe, sweetheart. I'll miss you so much."

"I'll miss you too, honey. And the second that those vamps are toast I'm headin' back. That is if you want me to come back." Why did I say that? She stiffened, fuck, I gotta ruin everything with my low self esteem.

"I'll get Dawn to come find you if you don't."

"Fee, Fi, Fo, Fum, I smell the blood of a Black Irish bum."

Buffy cracks up. She sighs into my shoulder. Suddenly it feels like we're the only ones in the station.

"Come back to me, Faith."

"Never would ever think of leavin' if I didn't hafta."

"Good, I didn't want to have to break rule number one."

Brat!!! I'm glad she can joke about it though, ‘cause I don't want it to be an untouchable subject between us. I do still want my face to be untouchable for one of her monster uppercuts and right crosses. Heh.

"I love you, Buffy. Thanks for everything."

"You'll have plenty of time to show your thanks when you get back." She winks and my pussy contracts. Damn, I want to tell G and Satsu to just go ahead without me. Sucks.

I give her a loving kiss and curb my urge ta fuck her in front of everyone. We step back from each other and I can see the look in her eyes. Shit, I've seen that look before but I used to think it was disdain, or the look she'd get right before she'd kick my ass. All that look says to me is H O R N Y. And if I didn't get it before I do now.

She's been horny for me since back in the ‘Dale!

Shit. That thought will keep my mind occupied for this whole trip. I'll be goin' back through every conversation and interaction we've ever had.

Everyone else is sayin' their goodbyes to each other and I give B one more kiss. She looks like she almost forgot something and reaches into her bag.

"Almost forgot! Early Christmas present." She hands me a package. Feels like a book. "Open it and think of me."

Awwww, she's such a sweetheart. Probably a book of poems or somethin'. I told her I liked Dorothy Parker, she's just dark enough to be my kinda thing.

"B, you shouldn't have, you said we wouldn't open presents until I get back."

"Think of this as a belated birthday present then."

I lean in and whisper in her ear. "I thought last night was my belated birthday present." She giggles and blushes.

I reach into my own bag and give her the present I got her. I knew she was gonna get me something. "Use these and think of me." I wink. Cue the even redder flush and more giggles from Buffy.

"Girls, as much as I don't want to be seen as an old fuddy duddy, the British Railway system won't wait for us, no matter how much in love we are."

"Damn, G, always gotta mess shit up." I smile at him.

"Yes, it is my sacred duty, to ‘mess shit up' as you say." Everyone cracks up at that. I look around.

Satsu must've already got on the train. One more kiss for B and I get on after Giles does. I stand at the window and watch as the train pulls from the station, Buffy blows me a kiss and I catch it. Yeah, fuckin' lame but I don't care. She's my baby and whatever she does is ok with me.

I take my seat across from Giles and Satsu in our own private car. Satsu's takin' out something that looks like a bag of pixy sticks. She's been holdin' out on me!

"Hey, Sashimi, you ready to kick some serious ass, Faith style?" Yeah, I know her real name but I like to mess with her. I grab the bag from her as I get comfortable.

"Yeah, Finocchio, I am." She snatches it back from me.

HAHAHA! That bitch, she called me the Italian/American name for queer, I wonder if she knows my full heritage. I haven't even told, B.

"As a newly appointed gay, I take offense to that on behalf of queers everywhere."

"You're a total newb. I'm gonna like schooling you in the ways of the gay. Minus the homophobic terms, of course."

"As long as you don't try to make any moves, ‘cause your ex-girl will hand me my ass."

We both laugh at that and then she goes quiet. She gets a questionin' look on her face.

"So... Dawn, what's her story..." I'm almost gonna choke on my own spit when I see the gleam in Satsu's eyes.

Giles takes off his glasses and starts to clean them. He clears his throat.

"Don't worry, G. Saturn's just kiddin', ain't ya, Savaloy?"

"Yeah, Fairy, I am."

God this is gonna be a fun trip.

"G-man, how long before we get to King's Cross?"

"Oh, about 4 and a half hours, give or take."

Hmmmm, should have bought a new MP3 player, or at least borrowed someone's. I could always open my present. Sounds like a plan.

I unwrap the book and a bump from the car knocks it out of my hand to the ground. Giles reaches down like the British gentleman he is and picks it up.

"What have we here, a book?" Everyone's a fuckin' smartass. Giles and I have had many an argument about me reading more. "Yes, it has pages, a back and oh, look a front cover." He turns the book over and immediately goes red in the face. Satsu looks over at it and cracks up. I'm confused, what could be so funny about poetry?

Giles clears his throat and adjusts his glasses. "The Kama Sutra for Lesbians" by Jennifer Sexton."

HUH?!

He opens the book like he's happened upon the answer ta the next 7 apocalypses. "Publisher's notes, yes let's see what it's about, shall we? ‘Many books have been written about the Kama Sutra, and many have been written about lesbian sex..."

I go to snatch it back from him and Satsu stops me. Bitch! I'll get her later. It's a Sicilian sayin' that revenge is a dish best served cold or so my Sicilian grandmother says. She'd be proud that I remembered that at least. Even if she wouldn't be proud at the fact that I've usually used that to hurt people.

Giles continues readin' with a smile that I'd love to wipe off his face with my boot. "...this book marries those two principles together in rich and vivid detail. A detail so vivid it will leave you literally salivating to try the concepts out on your willing partner."

I'm gonna fuckin' kick his ass so fuckin' hard!

"Oh, and an inscription, Dear Faith, please turn to the next page," Giles turns the page and then shuts the fuck up and tosses the book back over to me.

He's got an embarrassed smile on his face, it's also one that says he's just burstin' to laugh out loud but he's too tight-assed and British ta do it. He's even got those blushes that are really a sight to see, he looks like he's goin' about twelve shades of red in a three second loop.

Satsu's got an ‘I-wonder-what-that-minx-wrote' look on her face.

I glare at him as I open the book and turn ta the page with the inscription, HOLY FUCK!!

B pasted a picture in here. This time I do choke.

"Uhhhh, shit. Fuck, uhhhh."

"Exactly."

"What did she write?"

"Nothin'"

"Now Faith, Satsu is here to help us, and we should be honest with her."

I give him a look that says in about a second I'm gonna punch first and ask questions later.. I can tell he's lovin' this though, it's not often he gets to see me squirm.

"Giles, I've come to see you as my father, or at least father-in-law, dude. I'd hate for you to have no teeth for the family get together pictures."

He laughs. "I just thought what she wrote was so, so thoughtful." Damn I'm gettin' a glimpse of what G was like as a teenager. Bastard.

Satsu looks puzzled. I ain't helpin' her out. "I thought it was a picture?"

"Yes, but it's the smile that she has on that says so much."

I can't believe he's bein' like this!! I wanna laugh but knowin' that Giles just got a full on look at Buffy's snatch and that she might find out about it is really frightening me. Why didn't she tell me to open it when I was alone?! I guess she didn't wanna call attention to it.

"Smile?" Satsu, I think, is startin' t figure it out.

"Yeah, her lovely smile, it says she loves me, now can we talk about something else? How about the mission?" "I look at Giles and call forth a bit of the slayer, he immediately straightens up and switches to business mode. Good, watcher, good boy, have a cookie. "You said 10 people have been killed around the Millenium Bridge in the past two weeks?"

He clears his throat and gets out his journal. "Yes, with two bodies each found near the Tate Modern and the Bankside Gallery." He points to two places on a map that he's pasted into the journal. How very Indiana Jones' father of him. I loved that movie by the way. Much better than the second one. Shit focus, Faith.

"They art galleries?"

G nods, impressed. Yeah, I read, G-man. You just don't know it.

We're huddle in gettin' the scoop and thoughts of oral sex and Buffy's snatch are gone just like that. Well, not from me, but hopefully from Giles' mind. Or else I'm gonna call Will to wipe his memory clean. I don't care if it'll wipe everything else, too.

Shit, I better call B and tell her not to open her present in front of anyone!

I don't think she'd appreciate the gang knowin' I got her Ben-Wa balls.

-Fin (for the flashback)

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