Chapter 29: My Summer Vacation

Buffy sighs a very deep sigh and tries to hold her breath for just a few more seconds. She’s laying on her bed with Faith, and the two have been making out for the last hour or so. Their bodies are very close together, almost touching, but not quite. They can feel each other’s body heat and it’s driving them both a little crazy. So are the soft moans, and sighs the girls are making. The blonde is being a little more vocal tonight then she usually is, and Faith’s panties are ruined because of it.

One of Buffy’s hands is lightly caressing the brunette’s soft neck that at this point has two or three small hickies along the pulse point. Her other hand is placed on the slightly taller girl’s jean clad hip. That’s the only place she’s allowing that hand to go for now, even though she wants to put it in some more interesting and enjoyable places. Self-control is the watchword, and Buffy is definitely looking out for it tonight.

For her part, Faith is trying to keep her hands under control. She knows that whenever she gets a little too grabby the blonde pushes her away. Even if she smiles, and giggles while she’s doing it, she still does it. The brunette doesn’t want her hands swatted at right now. She just wants to enjoy this moment while it lasts. And she knows it isn’t going to last for much longer. And after this she won’t get to feel the blonde again for another month. She leaves for Sunnydale tomorrow afternoon.

She pulls back from the kiss and pants in some deep breaths. She looks into the blonde’s hazel eyes and smiles a little. Then she looks passed the blonde’s shoulder and to the alarm clock on the night stand. The big red numbers mock her and she has to force herself not to glare at them. Then she looks back at the blonde and gives her a little kiss on the lips. ‘I don’t want to go. Why is leaving always so hard?’ Because you’re totally head over heels for her. ‘Fuck you, you’re not even my narrator. Stay out of my fuckin head.’

“B, I need to get going. Your dad’s going to be home soon,” she says and gently brushes the hair out of the blonde’s face. Mr. Summers has been working late for the last couple of nights. He hasn’t been getting home until ten thirty at night, it’s now ten twenty. She tries to scoot away from the blonde, but Buffy doesn’t let her. She moves her hand from Faith’s hip, to the small of Faith’s back.

“He’s not coming home tonight. He called right before dinner and said he has to go to San Diego tonight to meet with a client tomorrow morning,” the blonde says and gently bites her bottom lip. She’s been thinking about this moment since she got off the phone with her dad. Because her father has been working so late the brunette has been sneaking in here at night to get in some quick kisses before she heads back to her hotel room.

“Stay with me tonight,” the blonde says and looks deeply into Faith’s soulful brown eyes. She searches their depths for any sign that the brunette is going to turn her down, but she sees none. All she sees is the love, and lust that Faith has for her. ‘I’m ready. Right now I’m ready for her. It isn’t the heat of the moment, and it’s not because she’s leaving tomorrow. I want her, and I want her to have me.’

“I don’t want to do anything you’re gonna regret in the morning,” Faith whispers and tries as hard as she can to ignore Buffy’s soft, inviting lips. “Next month you’re coming back to Sunnydale, and we can finally get back to normal.” Even though Faith is trying to convince her not to do this, Buffy doesn’t feel rejected. She doesn’t feel insecure, or angry at the brunette’s words. She feels even hornier that the other girl cares for her so much that she’s turning her down, even though it’s been a long time since they’ve done more then kiss.

“Tomorrow morning the only thing I’m going to regret is the fact that we only have until tomorrow morning.” The brunette goes to interrupt but Buffy silences her by putting her index finger of her soft, kiss swollen lips. “I’m ready. I’m absolutely, one hundred percent sure. Faith, I love you, and I want you to have me.” She moves her finger and replaces it when her lips. The kiss is soft, and very slow. It lingers for about a minute and a half before the brunette finally pulls back to say her piece.

“If you’re sure. Lets just take things slow, pick up where we left off before we started talking, and if it happens it happens,” she says with a small smile, and Buffy can’t help but smile back. They slowly bring their lips together in a soft, and very sensual kiss. For the blonde, time stands still, and everything else just melts away. ‘This is so perfect. I don’t care if I don’t have flowers, or music, or that we didn’t have a romantic dinner first. I don’t care, because I don’t need any of that stuff. I just need her.’

Buffy moans into the kiss when Faith gently rubs the tip of her tongue along the blonde’s bottom lip. She opens her mouth and grants the brunette access to it. The tips of their tongues touch, and for the blonde it feels like its for the very first time. All of this feels so new to her even though they’ve done it countless times before.

‘But this is different. Before we both knew we wouldn’t go very far. Now there are no restrictions.’ Every nerve ending feels like it’s on fire as the kiss deepens. It isn’t soft like it was before. Their tongues and tips are now demanding, and battling with each other for dominance. It isn’t long before the blonde gives up the battle and gives the brunette free rein. But then the blonde pulls back and sucks in a deep breath.

“Faith,” she whispers, her voice a little deeper then normal. She looks into the dark brown eyes of the other girl, and her expression becomes very serious. “Make love to me.” ‘God, that was so corny. I didn’t want to say that! I was going to say something way more romantic. I just need another second to think of something better,’ she thinks, and concentrates on coming up with something else to say.

Faith doesn’t hesitate before she kisses the blonde deeper then she’s ever kissed her before. She wraps her arms around the blonde’s tiny frame and carefully rolls the blonde onto her back. She doesn’t lay directly on top of her. Their torsos are pressed together, but Faith’s legs are off to the side. Even though Buffy’s made it very clear what she wants tonight, she still doesn’t want to overstep that invisible bound they’ve had between them for the last five months.

‘Or maybe that was the right thing to say,’ she thinks and moans as the brunette kisses her deeper then she’s ever been kissed before. ‘It’s like she’s kissing my soul. Eww, that sounds kind of gross. God, who cares? I just want her.’ The blonde kisses the brunette back with just as much passion. She wraps her arms around Faith’s back and arches her back, pressing herself firmly against the other girl.

“I think,” Buffy says when she pulls back from the kiss. They’re both panting heavily, and their breath is hot. “We need to lose some of these clothes.” She smiles a little and gently tugs on the hem of Faith’s shirt. The brunette smiles and lifts herself up until she’s sitting on her knees. She looks down at the blonde and gives her a small wink. Buffy just watches as Faith takes off her shirt, revealing her bra clad breasts.

“Is that better?” Faith asks and Buffy nods her head. The brunette leans down and kisses the blonde. Faith taking off her shirt was a step in the right direction, but it isn’t enough for Buffy. ‘I need to take matters into my own hands. I know I agreed to go slow, but I didn’t think we were going to go this slow,’ she thinks and gently caresses the newly exposed skin of Faith’s back. As they kiss she slowly inches her hands up towards the brunette’s bra strap. She slowly unclasps it and smiles into the kiss when she feels it loosen.

Not a word is said as Faith sits up a little to take the bra off. She holds herself up on her hands, her breasts dangle temptingly above the blonde. Now Buffy’s touched these breasts before. In a few of their more steamy make out sessions in the bed of Faith’s truck her hand wandered under the cup of Faith’s bra. But she’s never seen them, never tasted them, and now that she has the opportunity she can’t wait.

‘Is there any part of her that isn’t perfect?’ Buffy thinks and gently teases one of Faith’s nipples with her thumb. The blonde watches as the areola wrinkles and the nipple hardens. She watches as Faith’s chest moves up and down with her heavy breathing. Then the brunette sits up and very slowly unbuttons the blonde’s shirt.

Buffy watches as Faith slowly unbuttons her shirt. IT’s a little odd to the blonde how slow Faith is being about all of this. She didn’t think the brunette would instantly stip and then rip the blonde’s clothes off, but she’s spending way too much time on the buttons. ‘I just want her to take me. These clothes feel so...heavy and binding. I just want them off,’ she thinks and starts to unbutton her jeans.

“Wait,” Faith whispers, her voice husky and a little shaky. The sound of it sends a jolt of arousal straight to the blonde’s pulsing clit. “I want to undress you.” Buffy smiles and leans up the short distance to leave a small peck on the brunette’s kiss swollen lips.

She lays back down and looks up at her girlfriend with nothing but love in her eyes. She’s fantasized about this moment for a couple months now and in those fantasies the brunette is always caring, and sweet, but seeing it in real life, experiencing all of the emotions that are running through her body right now is something she couldn’t prepare herself for. But she’s not freaked, or having second thoughts. She’s ready, and she knows that in the morning Faith will still be here.

The blonde sits up when her shirt is completely unbuttoned. Her body presses very intimately against Faith’s and she feels her body head rise. As Faith slowly pulls the shirt off the blonde she places light kisses right behind Buffy’s ear. The smaller girl quietly moans and arches her neck to the side, silently asking the brunette to turn her attention there.

She doesn’t have to wait long. When her shirt is removed Faith drops it to the floor and trails warm, lingering kisses along the blonde’s neck. She stops at her pulse point and lightly sucks on the warm flesh. Not enough to leave a hickie but enough to make the blonde moan. She pulls her head back when she reaches the other girl’s shoulder. She hooks the bra strap under her thumb and slowly pulls it down. She trails slow, lingering kisses behind the material.

She follows it along Buffy’s shoulder, and down her arm. The position is a little uncomfortable, but well worth the little sighs the blonde is making. When the strap is as far down Buffy’s arm as it can go the brunette sits up straight and kisses Buffy on the mouth. It lingers, but doesn’t deepen, and when Faith pulls back for air Buffy is shaking.

At first Faith is concerned. She knows she hasn’t done anything to physically hurt the blonde, but maybe she’s just feeling too overwhelmed? Maybe she’s having second thoughts and this is going to way too fast? But then Faith looks into Buffy’s eyes and the raw emotion she sees take her breath away. No one has ever looked at her like that before. The hazel eyes are piercing, and Faith shudders at the feeling.

Buffy opens her mouth to say something but she doesn’t get the chance. Faith’s mouth is on hers in an instant. Her gentle yet demanding tongue enters her mouth and softly teases her own. The kiss seems to last for hours. It finally stops when they need to breath but their lips don’t stop touching. Faith gently nibbles on Buffy’s bottom lip and gives it a little tug.

Then she pulls back and kisses her way down the other side of Buffy’s neck. The kisses aren’t as slow as the others. That last kiss they shared has left both of them even more worked up then before. The brunette reaches around and unclasps the blonde’s bra and gently tugs it off. She drops it to the floor with the rest of her clothes and she looks at the blonde’s bare chest for the first time. She gets a very strong urge to suck on the hard pink nipples, and scrape her teeth across them, but she decides to wait on that.

The two kiss again. Their tongues softly massage each other, and their hands refuse to stay still. Buffy wraps her arms around Faith’s back and presses herself against the slightly taller girl. Their breasts press against each other, their hard nipples become even harder as they touch, and the sensation makes Buffy moan very loudly.

Faith gently caresses the blonde’s stomach, and tries not to smile when the muscles quiver under her touch. She slowly moves them upwards towards Buffy’s breasts, the only problem is that Buffy is pressed against her so tightly that she can’t get her hands between them to touch what she wants to touch. She lets out a little groan and slowly leans forward, gently pushing Buffy backwards, until they’re laying down.

The brunette kicks off her shoes and uses her foot to push them off the bed. Her hands instantly go for the button of Buffy’s jeans, but she forces herself to go slow. It’s been so long since she’s had someone like this and it’s driving her a little crazy. But what’s really getting to her is the fact that her hands are slightly shaking. She prays that the blonde doesn’t notice, and tries to make it go away.

‘Why am I so fuckin nervous? I mean, she’s shaking like a leaf, but it’s her first time so I get that. But why am I shaking?’ She finally gets the button undone and pulls down the zipper. She puts all her weight on her knees as she uses both hands to pull the jeans down. She doesn’t stop kissing the blonde though, and when she can’t push the pants down any further, she leaves it up to Buffy to take them off, and she gets kneed in the stomach a couple of times in the process.

Buffy pulls back from the kiss when she needs oxygen. She moans when Faith starts to lightly kiss her neck. ‘Ok, she needs to hurry up and take me because I think I’m going to explode,’ she thinks and slides her hands under Faith’s jeans and cups the other girl’s toned ass. She gets a little frustrated because of the restrictions caused by the jeans and she pulls her hands out of Faith’s pants to take them off.

The brunette is already a step ahead of her, and she unbuttons and unzips them herself. She does let Buffy help her slide them off. She doesn’t want the other girl to feel like she’s being controlled. Faith doesn’t want to do that to her. She’s different from anyone she’s ever been with, and what they’re doing now is far from a need to be in control. ‘Thanks the for psych 101,’ the brunette thinks and kicks off the jeans.

Now they’re both down to nothing but they’re panties. Both thongs, both dark colors, both completely soaked from the wetness coming out of the girls. Buffy looks into Faith’s eyes and really thinks about what they’re about to do. ‘After this there’s no going back. Right now I’m a virgin, if I don’t stop it now then I won’t be in a few minutes.’ She lets that thought roll around her head for a minute or two as Faith softly caresses her thighs. ‘And I’m completely ok with that.’

She grabs onto the elastic of Faith’s panties and gently tugs on them. The brunette helps her take them off and then pushes them off the bed with her foot. Buffy’s hands caress Faith’s back, and she lightly digs her nails into the soft skin. ‘She loves it when I do that,’ she thinks and holds back a smile. The brunette moans, and her head drops down onto Buffy’s shoulder. Her hips thrust forward and grind against the other girl’s.

Buffy’s legs spread wider at the feeling and she bites back a moan. All her mind can focus on is the heat coming from Faith’s crotch. It’s burning into her own wanting sex, and turning her on even more. She kisses the shell of Faith’s ear, and it gets the brunette’s attention. Faith reaches down with one hand and slowly pulls down Buffy’s thong. The blonde lifts herself off the bed a little to help out and then watches as Faith sits up and slowly pulls the underwear down her silky legs.

“Push the blankets down,” Faith says in a low voice. Buffy doesn’t ask why, she just does as she’s told. ‘The faster I push the blankets down the faster she’ll come back up here,’ she thinks and grabs onto her comforter and over sheet. It takes a little bit of struggling but she manages to kick the blankets to the foot of the bed.

‘God, she’s so beautiful,’ the blonde thinks as Faith slowly crawls back up the bed. Buffy spreads her legs a little wider and holds her arms out for the other girl. As soon as Faith is in reach Buffy gently tugs her down and kisses her. It’s deep from the start, and gets much deeper. The blonde’s trembling increases when she feels Faith’s hand gently caressing her thigh. It keeps moving a little higher and Buffy knows now it’s only a matter of time.

Now that it’s really happening she is a little scared. Not of being with Faith, but of the pain that she’s going to feel when Faith enters her for the first time. She tries to distract herself by gently scratching the brunette’s back, and softly battling with her tongue, but all her mind can really concentrate on is the hand that’s now between their bodies. She moans deeply into the kiss when the brunette’s fingertips lightly brush against her aching clit.

Faith pulls back from the kiss and looks deeply into Buffy’s eyes. She slowly works her fingers on the blonde’s pulsing, needing clit and smiles a little when the blonde’s head rolls back against the pillow and her hips start to buck, trying to gain more contact. She lightly kisses the blonde’s collar bone, and licks the sweaty skin. She lifts her head up and looks into Buffy’s eyes again as she slowly moves her fingers down towards the blonde’s entrance.

‘I hope I don’t hurt her too bad. Ok, so one finger or two? God, she’s gonna be so fuckin tight, I better go with just one for now,’ she thinks and softly kisses Buffy on the mouth. Every muscles in the blonde’s body tenses when she feels Faith’s middle finger gently tease her entrance. She tries to make herself relax but she can’t. She gets a little frustrated with herself and tries not to let it show.

‘Ok, so this isn’t how I imagined it. In my fantasies I wasn’t shaking like a dried out leaf, and tensing up at her touch. Her gentle, loving touch that I want to feel twenty-four seven,’ she thinks and hisses in a breath when Faith enters her. She goes very slow, pushing her finger inside of Buffy until she feels the resistence of her hymen. She looks into Buffy’s eyes and she sees a mix of love, pleasure, and pain.

She brings her lips to Buffy’s and places several butterfly kisses on them as she pushes passed the resistence. She feels the blonde’s mouth open, and the other girl lets out a small cry of pain. Faith stops moving, she lifts her head up slightly to look into Buffy’s eyes. She can’t, however, because the blonde has hers closed. The brunette waits for some type of signal to continue and after a minute or two Buffy lightly nods her head.

‘Ok, so that didn’t hurt as bad as I thought it was going to. I completely over exaggerated. I hope she doesn’t feel guilty about hurting me. I don’t want her to feel guilty about this,’ she thinks and tries not to wince when Faith starts up a slow rhythm. Buffy meets her thrust for thrust, and it isn’t long before the pain lessens and becomes a dull ache. She muscles finally start to relax, and she concentrates on the pleasure Faith is bringing her.

“Oh God, Faith,” Buffy moans and arches her back a little. ‘Ok, so I found the g spot,’ Faith thinks and rubs the spot again. “Oh God, yes.” This time the blonde is louder. Faith smiles and softly kisses Buffy’s throat. She rubs the spot again, only of a light, teasing touch she presses her finger firmly against it, and starts to stroke it with the right amount of pressure.

“Oh God, yes! Faith, I’m coming!” Buffy yells out as she thrown into ecstasy. Her eyes slam shut, and she sees every color of Crayola. Her hips thrust faster against Faith, and she digs her nails into Faith’s back hard enough to draw some blood. But she doesn’t notice any of that. The only thing she feels is the intense pleasure that’s flooding her system.

‘God, that was so amazing. What was I so afraid of again?’ she think with a small smile. She doesn’t know how long it takes her to come down from that high, but she does she feels completely satisfied. She looks up into Faith’s smiling eyes and suddenly she doesn’t feel completely satisfied, just mostly.

“Faith that was so...” she trails off and tries to think of a way to describe it. “There are no words.” She hugs the brunette very close to her body, and she isn’t the least bit surprised when she feels Faith nuzzle her neck. She kisses Faith’s cheek, and the shell of her ear, and starts to gently caress the other girl’s back. “I love you so much.” Her voice is a little strained with emotion and her eyes start to well with tears. The brunette lifts her head up and looks into the hazel eyes that are blurry with tears.

“I love you too,” she whispers and softly kisses the other girl. “Did I hurt you?” She can’t help but ask. She needs to know what she did so she can make the blonde stop crying. ‘I didn’t want to make her cry. I thought she was happy? A second ago she was smiling, right?’ she thinks and watches as the tears leak out the corner of Buffy’s eyes and get lost in her hair.

“It hurt a little, but not so much anymore.” ‘Ok, so that’s a little bit of a lie.’ “I’m sorry, but that was just so...and I just need a second.” Faith lightly nuzzles her neck again and Buffy wraps her arms tightly around her back. She doesn’t want to let go, not even for a second. She calms herself down, and can’t help but giggle at the tickling feeling of Faith’s breath against her neck. She’s always been a little ticklish there.

“Am I too heavy?” Faith whispers and starts to push herself up. But she stops when she feels Buffy tighten her grip. “Ok, I won’t go anywhere.” That sentence has more meaning behind it then either girl realizes. Faith is still afraid of crushing the other girl, so she rests most of her weight on her elbows and knees. She lifts her head up just enough to look into Buffy’s eyes. She rests her forehead against the smaller girl’s, and the blonde gently rubs their noses together. It makes both of them smile and Faith chuckles a little.

Buffy looks into Faith’s eyes and smiles a little. ‘She’s so amazing,’ she thinks and lightly kisses Faith on the lips. Her demeanor changes from the light, post orgasmic state. She’s serious now, and the brunette has no idea where this is coming from. ‘One second she’s all smiles and hugs, and now she’s dead serious. I’m surprised I didn’t get whiplash her mood changed so fast,’ she thinks and reciprocates to Buffy’s actions.

“Faith,” the blonde whispers and gently rubs Faith’s back. Her right hand moves from her back, to her side, and it’s moving lower with every gentle caress. “I want to make you feel just as good as I do. I just don’t know how.” The brunette smiles and leaves a little kiss on the tip of Buffy’s nose. The blonde smiles but then goes right back to being serious.

“That’s ok, B,” Faith says and gently kisses the blonde on the lips. While they kiss Buffy moves her hand from Faith’s side, to Faith’s abdomen, and she feels the muscles quiver, and shake under her gentle touch. She hesitates for a few seconds, wanting to continue but she’s so nervous and afraid of doing something wrong. Her insecurities are starting to get the better of her, and she knows it.

‘Will she still want if I’m not good?’ she thinks and very slowly moves her hand lower. Her fingertips lightly brush against Faith’s bald mound. They both shiver at the contact. The kiss deepens, their mouths open, and their tongues come out to play. As their tongues swirl together, and their lips softly caress Buffy dips her hand lower and her fingers rub against Faith’s wet, aching clit. The brunette pulls back from the kiss and moans deeply.

She moaned louder then she usually does. Having Buffy just touch her clit does feel good, but it’s nothing to moan about. She is trying to be as supportive as possible since she knows how nervous Buffy is. If she has to exaggerate the pleasure she’s getting then so be it, as long as Buffy stops feeling self-conscious. Then the blonde starts to very slowly rub her clit and the moan that comes from the brunette isn’t forced or exaggerated.

“Use two,” Faith whispers and Buffy slightly nods her head. Then she starts rubbing the brunette’s swollen, pulsing clit with her middle and ring fingers. She watches as Faith’s eyes shut, and her mouth parts, and she starts to breath a little harder. ‘Ok, so she likes what I’m doing. That’s good to know,’ she thinks and starts to move her fingers faster. The brunette moans again and the blonde smiles. ‘I hope she doesn’t get too loud,’ she thinks and lightly kisses Faith on the neck.

She teases Faith for a few minutes, watching all of the different facial expressions, and feeling the brunette’s body tense, and grind against her hand is completely different then what she thought it was going to be like. She never really thought Faith would be on top. She thought that after Faith was done pleasuring her, then they’d switch positions, but that hasn’t happened yet. Buffy is actually relieved that Faith is still on top. This way the brunette is still in control, and the blonde can relax and just go with it, and not feel as pressured.

‘Ok, I think I’ve teased her enough,’ she thinks when Faith gets an expression on her face that resembles pain. She slowly moves her fingers lower until she’s at Faith’s entrance. She’s a little surprised when she feels the amount of fluid that’s built up. ‘God, she’s so wet. I don’t know if she’s even going to feel this,’ she thinks as she slips a finger into the wanting girl. Faith’s muscles tightly contract around Buffy’s finger and her head drops onto the blonde’s shoulder again.

“I need more,” Faith whispers breathlessly, and Buffy can’t help but smile. ‘She’s all breathless because of me. This is going way better then I thought it would,’ she thinks and adds another finger with the first. The brunette moans deeply, and Buffy kisses the shell of her ear. She starts to slowly thrust them in and out and the brunette meets her thrust for thrust.

Buffy’s eyebrows furrow when she feels Faith start to move her hips in a circular motion. Her fingers touch things that they’ve never touched before, and the heat inside of the other girl is almost too much to bear. Then they rub against something that feels a little squishy and Faith hips start to thrust harder and she breathing picks up, and she very loudly into Buffy’s shoulder. ‘That’s gotta be her g spot,’ she thinks and rubs it again. Now that she’s found it she isn’t going to leave it alone.

The more she strokes the tissue, the harder Faith thrusts against her. The only sounds coming from the room are their heavy breathing, a wet clicking sound, and the headboard lightly banging against the wall. Buffy places several kisses along Faith’s neck and shoulder. She can tell that Faith is close. Her muscles are starting to tighten, and the rhythm they built is starting to get a little out of control.

“Uunnggghhhh, uunnggghhh, don’t stop,” Faith moans. ‘Yeah right, like I’d stop,’ the blonde thinks. She starts thrusting even harder into the other girl, and then curls her fingers upwards as hard as she can. “Oh fuck!” Faith yells and then squeaks a very high pitched squeak. The outpour of her orgasm feels like liquid fire, and Buffy is more then ok with that. She feels Faith’s hot come drip down her hand and wrist. ‘Jeez, pull back the flood gates why don’t you,’ she thinks but it’s mock anger. She has a big smile on her face. ‘She’s never come that much before. Is it weird that I feel proud because of it?’

She gently rubs Faith’s back with her free hand, and waits for the other girl to come down from her high. Her body is still shaking, and her muscles are still contracting almost painfully around Buffy’s fingers. When the muscles finally relax Buffy pulls her fingers out of Faith and wipes her hand off on the sheet. Buffy waits for Faith’s breathing to return to normal. She’s quiet as she waits and she continues to caress Faith’s back. She can’t make the smirk on her face go away, but she isn’t trying very hard.

“Now I know why you had me push the blankets down,” Buffy says with a little giggle. Faith chuckles, her voice is deeper, and raspier then normal. The blonde looks into the dark brown eyes of the girl above her when Faith lifts her head up to look at the other girl. She doesn’t say anything, instead she places a very gently kiss on Buffy’s lips and then rolls off of the other girl. They lay on their sides facing each other. Buffy can’t help but get the feeling that Faith is uncomfortable.

“Is something wrong?” she asks, her voice barely above a whisper. Her insecurities are creeping up and strangling her at the moment, and she can’t force her voice to be any louder then that. She watches as Faith adverts her eyes away from the blonde’s, and stares at the bed sheet. Buffy’s eyes never leave Faith as she waits for an answer.

“Nothing’s wrong, I’m just not used to the whole ‘pillow talk’. I’ve never stuck around afterwards. I always just leave,” she says and picks at some imaginary fuzz on the sheet. Buffy watches, her heart in her throat as she waits for Faith to continue, but she doesn’t. The silence is deafening, and she doesn’t know how much longer she can take it.

“Do you want to leave?” she asks her voice even lower then before. She isn’t sure if Faith heard her, until the brunette looks into her eyes. The emotion that Buffy sees in those dark eyes leaves her feeling a little breathless. She gets lost in those eyes and forgets that she asked a question, until Faith speaks.

“That’s just it, I don’t want to leave. I don’t feel trapped, or claustrophobic or whatever. I keep waiting for it, but it’s not coming. It’s just a little weird. And I’ve never done the pillow talk. I don’t know what to talk about.” Buffy smiles and gently caresses one of Faith’s cheeks.

“If it makes you feel any better I’ve never done the pillow talk either,” she says with a smirk. Faith chuckles and slowly turns her head and kisses the palm of Buffy’s hand. They both shiver, and get goose bumps on their cooling skin when the AC turns on. Buffy reaches down and pulls the large comforter up. She covers both of them up and scoots a little closer to Faith. She isn’t sure what she should do. ‘I want her to hold me, but I don’t want to make her do something she isn’t comfortable doing.’

Before Buffy can say anything about the sleeping arrangements, Faith puts a hand on the blonde’s hip. She lets it rest there for a few seconds, and she looks into the sleepy hazel eyes with a little uncertainty. When she sees Buffy smiles she knows she’s doing something right. She slowly scoots a little closer until their bodies are almost touching. She wraps her arm around Buffy, and lets her hand rest between the blonde’s shoulder blades. She holds her close and they both just lay in a comfortable silence until they drift off to sleep.

Chapter 30: My Morning After

The morning light shines in through the sightly open window and onto the two sleeping bodies. Their positions changed during their sleep. The brunette had been holding the blonde gently yet securely but that isn’t the case anymore. Now they lay with the blonde on her back, the brunette’s head resting on her shoulder, arms wrapped tightly around her, and one leg thrown over the small girl’s thighs.

Faith si the fist to wake. She slowly starts to stir as the morning sun shines brightly on her face. She barely opens her eyes and starts to stretch until she realizes she’s snuggled up against someone. The events of the previous night start to flood her memory and she gets a small smile on her face. ‘I was right about her being tight. I almost came when I felt it,’ she thinks and slowly sits up.

‘She’s even more beautiful when she’s asleep,’ she thinks as she slowly leans down and places a gentle kiss on the blonde girl’s forehead. Then as carefully as she can she gets off the bed and prays that Buffy doesn’t wake up. She walks around to the other side of the bed and puts on her shirt and jeans. She tiptoes across the room and looks back at the sleeping form before she leave the room.

After a minute or two the blonde wakes up and not as pleasantly as the brunette had. She’s startled awake and sits up as soon as her eyes are open. She looks around the room and knows that something is wrong but she isn’t sure what. The blankets fall from her naked torso and her warm skin is assaulted with the cool air of the room. She wrinkles her eyebrows as she tires to remember what happened the night before. She takes a deep breath and smells the remains of what took place in her bed.

‘Faith and I slept together, as in we made love,’ she thinks and a small smile graces her lips. ‘Damn straight we did. God she was so amazing, she made me feel so amazing, and inside of her feels so amazing. But where is she?’ She takes another looks around the room but doesn’t see the other girl anywhere.

‘Ok Buffy don’t jump to any conclusions. Maybe her foster parents called and said she had to go back early and she didn’t want to wake me. I’m sure she left a note or something.’ She looks around to all of the places that the brunette would have left a note. There’s nothing on her night stands, nothing on the bed next to her, and nothing taped to the door. She even gets up and takes a closer look around the room. But she doesn’t come up with anything.

‘So she just left? Why would she just leave? I thought we both had a good time last night. She told me that she never slept over at any other person’s house, but she spent the night here. Was it all just a scam? Was she with me for this long just to take my virginity?’ She lays back down on the bed and covers herself up. She feels cold, but not just on the outside. Inside she’s filled with confusion, and dread.

She holds the blankets tightly to her body, and her eyes fill with tears. She feels dirty, and it’s not because of the dried sweat on her skin. She’s trying so hard not to let her emotions and insecurities get the best of her, but she’s failing miserably. She was expecting to wake up next to Faith, and have the brunette reassure her with her sweetness that what they did last night wasn’t a mistake. But now she isn’t so sure.

She hears the door creak open very slowly but she doesn’t look up. ‘Probably just Dawn coming to tell me that breakfast is ready, and then complain about Sasha. She’s nice and all but she’s not a good cook.’ She wipes at her eyes and pulls the blankets a little tighter around her body. She tries not to move too much or else Dawn will know that she’s fully awake and the younger girl won’t leave her alone if she knows that.

‘I don’t want to get up. I just want to stay in here and die.’ She closes her eyes and tries to disappear by sheer willpower. Her eyebrows furrow a little when she feels very soft lips lightly kissing her tears away. She slowly opens her eyes and sees that Faith is the one kissing her tears away. ‘Wait, I thought she left? What the hell is going on?’

“Babe, what’s with the tears?” the brunette whispers and sits up so she can look at the blonde. Buffy looks at her with some confusion. ‘She’s dressed, and she left, but she came back? Did she start to leave and then change her mind or something? She definitely has some explaining to do.’ “Ok, B, I’m gonna need an answer. I’m starting to feel a little insecure.” The blonde sits up and clutches the blankets to her chest.

“I woke up and you were gone. I thought you left me,” she says in a small whisper. Even though the volume is low, there’s an enormous amount of emotion in those words. The blonde watches as her words register inside the brunette’s mind. Faster then the blink of an eye she’s swept up in Faith’s arms, the brunette is holding her and rubbing her back.

“I would never do that to you. I just had to go to the bathroom,” Faith tells her and pulls back from the hug just enough to look at Buffy’s face. She places little kisses all over the blonde’s impish face. Buffy’s face blushes about three different shades of red. ‘She just went to the bathroom? How come I didn’t think of that?’ Buffy pulls away from the other girl so she can look at her face. She’s still very embarrassed and her cheeks are still a little pink.

“I’m sorry,” she says and wipes at her eyes. She smiles a nervous, very embarrassed smile and tries to shake the feeling off. “I didn’t mean to get all depresso-girl, but I woke up and you were gone, and I panicked a little.” She sighs when Faith starts to gently caress the soft skin of her arms. She looks into Faith’s eyes and she sees nothing but love, and it makes her skin tingle a little and she doesn’t feel cold anymore.

“I’d never leave without telling you,” Faith says and brings her hands up so she’s gently massaging Buffy’s shoulders. “I gotta admit it is kinda nice knowing you’d be that upset if I did leave.” She has a cocky smirk on her face now and Buffy just shakes her head and rolls her eyes. “Oh come on, tell me you don’t want me again. You can’t do it, it’s impossible. Go ahead, say it.” Buffy makes her face completely blank and she looks Faith dead in the eyes.

“I don’t want you again,” she says in an emotionless voice. The brunette gets a mock-wounded look on her face and it makes the blonde smile. She watches as Faith gets a look on her face that she recognizes and the hair on the back of her neck stands up. She tenses up a little and gets a playful smile on her face when she sees Faith move into a very predatory like stance. Buffy tries to make her face go blank but it doesn’t work very well. “I don’t want you again.” She can’t help but giggle as she says it.

“That’s it,” Faith says and pounces. She pushes Buffy onto her back and pulls the blanket down. She starts tickling the blonde’s very ticklish stomach. “Take it back B, take it back and I’ll stop.” Buffy squirms and laughs and yells out for the brunette to stop, but she doesn’t. She’s bucking her legs and grabbing at Faith’s hands, but the brunette will not be denied. She straddles the blonde’s thighs, and flips her hair to one side so she can keep up her attach on the blonde.

“No! Faith, stop!” Buffy screeches and grabs at Faith’s hands. She kicks her legs and her back arches unintentionally. “Faith I’m gonna pee! Stop it! Stop it!” But Faith doesn’t stop. She keeps tickling her girlfriend and she has to admit that it’s mostly because she’s still naked, and seeing her squirming around and getting all flushed and breathless is really hot. “Ok, I admit it! I want you again! I want you right now!” That makes Faith stop and just stare at the other girl.

The brunette’s body is hovering just inches above the blonde’s. Their faces are close enough that they can feel each other’s labored breathing. Buffy is suddenly very aware of the fact that she’s naked, and all Faith has on is a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. She feels the heat between her legs grow, and her nipples harden. She stretches her neck and lightly kisses Faith on the lips. She ignore the icky taste of morning mouth and kisses the girl deeper.

“Baby,” the blonde whispers when she pulls back from the kiss. She gently caresses Faith’s cheek and then runs a hand through the dark tousled hair. “Baby, take off your clothes.” Buffy watches with some amusement as Faith gets off the bed and strips down in a matter of seconds. She giggles a little bit and her eyes travel up and down Faith’s toned, gorgeous body. Her mouth waters a little as Faith crawls back on the bed and hovers only an inch above the other girl.

“Well, you got me just how you wanted me,” she whispers and her eyes wander all over Buffy’s face. “What do you want to do with me?” Buffy smiles and softly kisses the brunette’s soft lips. The kiss lingers for a few moments and both girls pull back at the same time. Buffy’s leg spread further apart to allow Faith more room. She moans deeply when the brunette gently presses her body against each other with every breath that is taken.

‘This progressed really fast,’ Buffy thinks as Faith starts to lightly kiss her neck. ‘One minute she’s tickling me, and now she’s on top of me, and making me all hot and bothered. God, I love her.’ She hisses in a breath when Faith lightly nips at her collarbone. She can feel the other girl’s warm and wet crotch pressed against the own.

“Faith,” the blonde moans deeply and wraps her arms around Faith’s back. She brushes her fingertips along the hot skin and she can feel the damage she caused last night. But the brunette moans at the feeling of the tiny scabs being caressed so Buffy doesn’t stop.

“Faith, I need you,” Buffy moans and slowly thrusts her hips so there will be no confusion about her meaning. She feel the other girl smile against her warm, wanting flesh and she knows that she won’t need to say it twice. She wraps her legs around Faith’s waist and moans as the other girl kisses her deeply. They start up a teasingly slow rhythm and Buffy feels like she’s already about to pop.

“Hey Buffy breakfast is ready. Oh my God! My eyes! My eyes!” Dawn screams at the top of her lungs. Buffy panics when she hears her sister’s voice and pushes Faith off of her. The other girl hits the floor hard, and unfortunately her feet get tangled up in the comforter and it goes down with her leaving Buffy exposed.

She grabs for the blanket but Faith already pulled it up around her naked body. Buffy pulls with all her strength but Faith isn’t willing to give it up so easy. They start fighting over it, unaware that Dawn has already run away. The struggle for the large, pink blanket is about to get violent when Buffy hears a door slam and the walls shake. She looks over at the doorway and sees that Dawn is gone. She sighs a little in relief and then cold fear runs down her back.

“Get in the closet,” she says quickly and jumps off the bed. She picks up all of Faith’s clothes and throws them into her bedroom closet. Faith stands up, looking a little confused, until she hears footsteps walking down the hall. “Get in the closet, please. If Sasha sees you she’ll tell my dad and he’ll tell my mom and she’ll skin us both alive.” Faith nods her head and makes a mad dash for the closet. Once she’s in there Buffy sits down on the bed and covers herself up with the comforter.

“Buffy, what in the world is going on in here?” the sleepy redhead asks with a big yawn. ‘Good, she’s still tired. Dawn must’ve made breakfast then. I’ll take her cooking over Sasha’s any day. Ok, Buffy I think you’re missing the point. Sasha is really tired so she isn’t going to question you too much. Hopefully she’ll just wander back to the kitchen and zone out over a hot cup of coffee.’

“It got really hot last night so I slept in my birthday suit,” she says with a small blush. ‘Ok so not a complete lie.’ “I must’ve kicked the blankets off in my sleep because when Dawn came in here she kind of got an eye full.” The redhead just nods and yawns again. ‘Please leave, please leave, please leave.’ She does everything in her power not to look over at the closet because she knows that will be a dead give away.

“Next time just turn the air conditioner on,” she says and walks away. ‘Oh thank God for stupid people,’ she thinks and gets up. She slips on her pink bathrobe and walks over to the closet door. She opens it a little and smiles when she sees Faith quietly going through all of her clothes.

“I can’t believe you wear this stuff. Pink ruffles, are you serious?” she asks with mock judgment and gives the blonde a little smile. She tries to step forward but Buffy stops her. “Um, ok, you wanna tell me what’s up? I came out of the closet when I was in eighth grade, really don’t like being back in it.” ‘She always has a joke. Does she ever take anything serious?’

“You need to stay in here, at least until Sasha goes to work. She leaves in,” she looks over at the clock on her wall and sighs a little. “In twenty minutes. I owe you so much.” The brunette gives her a little ‘fuck yeah you do’ type of look and the blonde just nods her head. She leans in and plants a little peck on the brunette’s lips. “I just need to go talk to Dawn and make sure she isn’t going to rat us out. I’ll be back in a little bit. I’ll bring you some breakfast.”

“Alright, but hurry. I don’t like sitting in small, dark places.” Buffy takes a step back and opens the drawer of her desk. She pulls out a small purple flashlight and hands it to the disgruntled brunette. “Ha, ha, very funny.” Buffy smiles and gives Faith one more kiss on the lips before she closes the door. She sighs a heavy ‘how the hell did this get so out of hand’ sigh and makes her way towards her sister’s room. She can’t hear anything on the other side of the door and she doesn’t know if that’s a good thing or not.

“Dawnie, can I come in?” she asks and there’s no answer. She knows that Dawn came in here. She’d recognize this door slamming anywhere. “Dawn please we need to talk.” She opens the door a little and sees her sister laying on her bed, and staring up at the ceiling. ‘Ok, this is really weird. She never acts like this. Why is she being quiet?’

“Dawnie, are you ok?” The younger girl nods her head and sighs, but she doesn’t say anything, doesn’t even look at her sister. Buffy walks over to the edge of the bed and sits down. Dawn looks a little pale, almost like she’s going to be sick, and she has a blank expression on her face. “I know you don’t want to but we need to talk.” Buffy watches as Dawn’s big blue eyes travel from the ceiling to her own hazel ones.

“I’m not going to tell Dad or Mom if that’s what you’re worried about.” Buffy sighs and goes to say something but the younger girl interrupts. “I’m fine, really. I just never thought I’d ever see you two doing that. I mean, I heard you last night, but I didn’t think you’d be doing it again.” Buffy blushes a little and tries to think of something to say, but again the younger girl keeps talking before she can. “So, you and Faith really love each other?”

“Yes, we do love each other very much. I know you’re still a little unsure about Faith, but she isn’t going to hurt me. This isn’t some scheme to get into my pants and then take off. She loves me, and what we have is real. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future but I can honestly say that I can’t imagine my life without her in it.” The youngest Summers looks up at her big sister and gets a little smile on her face.

“Ok,” she says and then sighs. “Just do me a favor?” Buffy gets a questioning look on her face and Dawn blushes a little. “The next time you two, ya know?” Buffy nods her head and can’t help but smile at the blush on Dawn’s face. “Will you make sure to cover up? I mean, I’m sure there are people out there who would like to see Faith’s ass, but I’m not one of them.” Buffy can’t help but laugh and Dawn joins in. They calm down after a minute or two and Buffy takes a moment to catch her breath.

“I’ll keep that in mind. I need to get back to Faith, I sort of have her trapped in the closet. Ok, so not trapped, but I think that’s how she feels. I better get back to her before she freaks out and writes a song about it or something.” Dawn giggles and Buffy smiles back. She gets up and heads back to her bedroom.

Now that she’s fully awake she takes a moment to herself to really think about what happened last night. ‘I’m not a virgin anymore, and it still kind of hurts. But she was so gentle, and I love her so much. But what if she changes? Is she going to expect me to have sex all the time now? Just because we did it once it doesn’t mean I’m going to want it every time we’re alone. Ok, stop wigging. This is just the insecurities talking. Take a breath, calm down. I don’t regret it. I am so far from regretting it. But that was one hell of a morning after. Hopefully the next one will go smoother.’

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