Buffy's heart fell. But she couldn't look away. Every emotion that Buffy stored away for Faith came rushing back. Buffy knew she shouldn't be jealous but she was. She had pushed Faith so far away before…now she wanted things to be different. Was she too late?

The way Buffy felt for her sister slayer confused her. It terrified her before. Finally, Buffy walked away from the window and sat on her bed. She remembered all the jokes Faith told her and how she used to look at her. Buffy always ignored it. But could it be?

Did Faith feel something?

Faith understood her in ways no one could. Buffy stared at the hands folded in her lap. Why was she feeling this way? Why did her heart speed up whenever Faith was around?

"I don't understand!" Buffy yelled as she threw a pillow across her room.

Outside…

Kennedy had turned around and wrapped her hands behind the brunette slayer’s neck. Faith had her hands on Kennedy's waist and slid them up her back. The potential ran her tongue across Faith's bottom lip. Faith granted her access and explored Kennedy's mouth.

Kennedy placed her hand on the side of Faith's face raining her mouth with kisses. Kennedy's kisses were frantic as if she stopped, it wouldn't be real. Faith started to kiss her way down Kennedy's neck. Kennedy moaned a little bit at the sensation it was giving her. Heat spread all through her body.

"God…Faith…you know how long I've wanted this?" Kennedy whispered as Faith kissed her way back up to her lips claiming them.

It felt so good. Faith was lost in the sensation and the passion. She was so desperate to feel something…anything. Other then the pain she always felt.

Kennedy slammed Faith upside the house. Faith was rather surprised but impressed. Usually she would be the one to do that.

Kennedy kissed Faith's pulse point and lightly sucked on it before whispering in her ear, "God, I want you."

Faith moaned in frustration. She tangled her hands in Kennedy's hair and pulled her to her kissing her and sucking on Kennedy's lower lip. Faith reversed positions and had Kennedy pinned upside the house.

Faith slipped a thigh in between Kennedy's legs and applied pressure. A moan escaped Kennedy's mouth as she buried her head in Faith's neck. Faith pressed her thigh in harder applying more pressure to Kennedy's clit. The potential  moaned again and threw her head back.

 Upstairs…

Buffy couldn't take it any more. She couldn't stand it that Faith was out there kissing Kennedy. She didn't fully understand how she felt but she was going to stop it.

Buffy walked down the stairs to the backyard and opened the door.

What she saw made her gasp. Faith had Kennedy pinned upside the house with her thigh in between her legs. Kennedy was rocking on it and moaning as Faith kissed down her neck with one hand on her breast.

Buffy's gasp got Faith's attention and she turned her head over her shoulder and saw her.

"Buffy!" Faith gasped shocked. Faith practically let Kennedy fall to the ground as she stood dead straight as a board.

Kennedy halfway got up looking at Buffy embarrassed. Buffy was so shocked and started to back up. Faith took a couple steps forward.

"Buffy, wait…" she started as the blonde turned around and sprinted back into the house.

"Buffy!" Faith yelled as she started to run after her. Kennedy caught her arm and held her back.

"Let her go Faith," she said. Faith shook her head frantic.

"But…" Faith started looking back at the backyard door. Her heart hammering in her ears.

Kennedy narrowed her eyes at Faith and they burned into the other girls. Faith felt like she had been on a twister ride 100 times and thrown on the ground. Everything seemed to be spinning.

"You like her don't you?" Kennedy asked hurt and angry. Faith about threw up as she made eye contact with Kennedy.

"What!" Faith replied.

"You love her. Don't you!" Kennedy yelled as her eyes started to fill up with tears. Faith looked at her with a pained expression on her face. This was killing her and she had no idea what to do.

"Kennedy…" Faith started reaching out for her. Kennedy jerked away.

"Don't. Don't you touch me," Kennedy exclaimed as if she had been burned.

"You don't understand…Kennedy I…" Faith was trying to get through to her for she felt really alone.

Kennedy looked away from Faith tears streaming down her face. Faith reached out and brushed a few stray tears from her face. Kennedy leaned into her touch, forgetting and following her body’s need for the contact,  then backed away as realization kicked in again.

Kennedy took a few steps back and then did what Buffy did earlier and sprinted into the house.

 "Kennedy!"

Buffy's room…

Buffy was face down on her bed crying. It hurt her to see Faith and Kennedy like that. And Buffy was starting to realize why.

She cared about Faith. She had always been drawn to the dark slayer but her feelings scared her. She kept burying them and burying them till she ignored the girl completely.

Tears streamed down her face and her body wreaked with sobs. She didn't want to admit the harsh reality of how she felt. She almost felt dirty. But all she kept seeing going through her head was Kennedy and Faith…Faith and Kennedy.

Buffy heard a slam as the back door was slammed shut and heard Faith calling Kennedy's name…just as she did hers. No matter what Buffy did she couldn't stop crying.

 Backyard…

Faith's shoulders slumped as her demeanor slacked. She was alone…again. Faith sighed and fell to her knees. Tears started to run down her face. Faith rarely ever cried. She touched her fingertips to her face smearing the liquid off. The brunette stared at her hands.

She had fucked up…again. She didn't know what to feel or to think. She kept seeing Kennedy's hurt angry face and Buffy's… But then again…why would Buffy even care?

Faith looked up and saw Willow approaching the backdoor. She had to get out of there. She had to go relieve some steam and think.

Before Willow could even call out her name, Faith shot up and took off through the back stumbling on her way trying to catch her footing. Willows calls started to fade away as Faith ran further into the darkness of the night.

Willow's Room…

Kennedy sat alone in Willows room, which had become partly her room also. Her head was in her hands and she was sobbing. She managed to calm herself down a little bit. She could still feel Faith's body pressed up against hers.

Kennedy brought her fingertips to her lips and traced them, still feeling Faith's lips. They were so warm and soft on hers. The potential shook her head. An image of Faith's hurt faced flashed through her mind. Before Kennedy sprinted into the house, Faith looked so hurt.

She should go talk to her. Kennedy did over react a little bit. But the mere thought of losing Faith to Buffy hurt her. She had to find her. She wasn't just going to give up on Faith like that. The brunette slayer did try to stop her from running off.

Kennedy could tell that Faith did care about her. Kennedy wasn't so sure about the whole Buffy thing but she just wanted to be with Faith. So she had to find her so she could talk to her. So after Kennedy wiped her face and found the energy she got up and walked out of the bedroom.

She walked past Buffy's room on the way downstairs and it was quite. Without another thought, Kennedy went towards the back door.

Willow stood there staring out back with a worried look. She occasionally shook her head. Kennedy cleared her throat and Willow jumped.

"You know, you should expect the unexpected," Kennedy said with a little emotion. Willow half cracked a smile. Kennedy cocked her head to the side. Something was up or Willow knew something that she wasn’t saying.

Willow sighed.

"What happened?" She asked. Kennedy looked at her in surprise. The redhead looked back at the empty backyard. Kennedy then franticly looked with her eyes for Faith. But the dark slayer was gone.

"She left. I saw her. You shouldn't go out alone to find her," Willow stated facing the potential. Pain showed on her face.

"I have to find her Willow," Kennedy said as she tried to push past her. Willow grabbed her arm.

"Kennedy…you have to stay here…you must let her go right now," Willow pleaded looking back into the dark yard. Willow knew Faith had to think. She also knew that it may be dangerous but Faith needed her time to heal. Willow just hoped to God that she would be all right till morning.

Willow turned her head to look at Kennedy.

"She's hurt Kennedy. She has a fragile heart. She needs space." Willow said all of this as tears started to form in the potential’s eyes.

Buffy's room…

Buffy sat on her bed very quite. Her tears slowing their flow down her cheeks. The blonde got up and walked in the darkness of her room to her other window that faced the front of the house.

Faith stood in the middle of the street staring up at Buffy's window. Buffy could see the shine of tears on her cheeks. Buffy placed her palm on the glass windowpane and Faith took two steps back before turning around and running away.

Buffy watched her go as pain hit her heart. Buffy was always closing herself off from everyone. But a sudden wave of sleepiness overcame Buffy and she slumped to the ground.

Downstairs…

 Kennedy nodded to Willow understanding her and the words she spoke. Kennedy would have to wait till Faith came back to talk to her…but what if she never returned?

Outside in a grave yard…

Faith saw Buffy in her window and thought that she was still the holder of her heart. But she had to walk away. Spike was right and Faith was all for starting over. The brunette slayer walked past the graveyard and into the park. She all of a sudden became very tired as she tried to walk over to a bench. But Faith fell right to the ground behind some pine trees and bushes and fell fast asleep.

Living room at the Summers…

As soon as Kennedy went back upstairs, Willow began to chant a spell hoping she could cast it right. She wasn't intruding…she was just trying to help Buffy better understand Faith…so she thought.

Willow, after casting her spell, walked to the living room and sat down spent. Maybe forcing the two slayers into a slayer like dream would work…

Buffy and Faith's dream…

Buffy got up off the ground and knew immediately that it was a slayer dream. But it seemed different...and how was it possible to have one all of a sudden after she had just seen the other slayer?

She was in a house that she had never seen before. And the house was a total mess. Beer bottles and used needles lay around the mess. Buffy heard footsteps. She turned to find Faith approaching her.

"Faith?"

"Around my head you go…tsk tsk, didn't even ask my permission," Faith had said walking by. Something wasn't right. Faith stopped a ways from Buffy.

"Just great isn't it. It doesn't seem like home but it is." Faith said kicking a bottle. A sudden scream was heard. Buffy jumped but Faith just stood there. Buffy looked at her.

"Are we having a slayer dream? I don't understand…you heard that right?" Buffy was so confused. She had no idea what was going on or where she was. Faith only looked at her sadly. In a flash she was a bloody little girl and flash Faith was Faith again. Buffy thought she was out of her mind.

"Don't be afraid. Yes, this is a slayer like dream…but not really a dream… someone sent you here. I won't remember this at all. It will just become one of my common nightmares. I won't remember you. It's the way it works." Faith had explained.

Buffy wasn't even sure if this was even the real Faith that was speaking to her.

"A spell?" Buffy asked guessing. Faith nodded her head. "I guess we're in your mind?" Buffy asked. Faith nodded again as another scream was heard. Buffy shuddered. It was so dark in the room she could barely even see Faith. Faith got up and walked over to her.

"I'm Faith but not really. I'm more like a guide…subconscious…it's hard to explain. You're watching her dream…I'll be gone soon. I know this is all confusing to you…I'm sorry." The Faith like person said. She ran her hand down Buffy's cheek.

"Don't be afraid. You'll see things…bad things…things you never even knew. But you're just observing it all…" the brunette explained. Faith's image started to flicker.

"There isn't much time. Willow's spell isn't that strong…don't be afraid… not… real…" And the image flickered out…

Summers living room…

Willow started to feel a little bad now. It really wasn't her right to throw Buffy into Faith's head like that without her knowing. But Willow felt that it had to be done. They wouldn't be able to defeat The First or anything if they didn't work as one. She hoped that this worked…

Buffy's and Faith's Dream…

Buffy walked down the dark hallway and came across a room with a girl huddled in the corner. The girl rocked back and forth and had various cuts and bruises on her.

"Where are you, you worthless bag of shit!" A voice yelled.

The girl's head snapped up and she started to shake. Buffy walked over to the girl and was going to try to comfort her but her hands went straight through her. They had no idea she was even there. But Buffy could feel every emotion coming from the girl…and it was killing her.

A man stumbled through the doorway and clung to the wall.

"Thought you could hide huh? That's what your whore of a mother thought too…now it's your turn Faith," The man said advancing on the girl. He pulled back his fist and then there was a flash and Buffy was somewhere else.

So she was feeling all of Faith's emotions. Buffy was terrified. Was that Faith's life? Now Buffy was in a graveyard. It wasn't one she recognized. Then she saw the little girl again kneeling by a grave.

Buffy walked on over to the little brunette and peered over her shoulder. Hope Virtue, it read. Buffy noticed a tear slide down the younger Faith's face as she placed a flower on her grave.

Buffy felt all this pain coming from the girl. Then it hit her. The grave was Faith's mother's.

Buffy then saw a whole bunch of flashes at once.

Faith being beaten again.

Faith living on the streets. And the feeling was the same, utter pain and hurt. Buffy felt horrible for the girl.

Then finally a flash started and was longer like the first two.

Buffy was now in a rather clean house. Faith at around the age of 15 stood in the middle of the room walking in circles in her leather clothing. Faith was so young then when she was called.

A voice emerged from the doorway in an English accent, "Faith, you can trust me. It took me so long to find you. I won't hurt you-" The English lady was saying all of this as she sat down a sandwich and pop can.

Now that Buffy looked closer at Faith, she was rather thin. Too thin. Then she could feel it. The feel of absolute hunger within the girl. She hadn't eaten in days. Then there was the feeling of being frightened. Faith didn't look like it but Buffy could feel it coming off the dark slayer.

"I told you. I'm not too great in the trust department." Faith had said walking to the window. The English lady sighed.

Then more flashes came and Buffy went along for the ride.

Willow's room - Kennedy…

Kennedy paced back and forth in the room looking out of the window every now and then. That was it. She wasn't just going to sit there. She had to go find Faith and was going to find her now.

Kennedy threw on her jacket and went down the stairs. She tiptoed around Willow who was asleep in one of the chairs. She grabbed a few stakes and walked out the door. She was a big girl and could take care of herself. She was just worried about finding Faith.

 Buffy's and Faith's dream…

Now Buffy understood why Faith never slept. She could tell which was reality and which was nightmare. Right now they were on the rooftop. But Buffy (her dream version) was laughing and smiling while she stabbed Faith, saying hurtful things.

"We never needed you. All you do is screw up. I don't love you, never could," said the dream version of Buffy.

That caught Buffy's attention at once. Who said anything about love? Buffy could feel all the hurt Faith held for feeling left out. Buffy felt them all so fast and so much, she didn't have time to register them in her mind let alone think about it.

But now, Buffy was feeling something new from Faith. Love, care, and longing, among other things. What was this that Faith was feeling for her? She saw Faith in prison helping inmates, protecting them. She also saw her there in her cell alone thinking about Buffy herself.

She saw Faith cry and cry over Buffy. One image after another came through as well as her nightmares. Buffy was on overload. She didn't know if she could take it much longer.

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