PART 13
Cordelia sat on her bed staring at her hands when she heard the doorbell ring. She walked down stairs and opened her door. And there stood Faith. Cordelia's face brightened then turned to concern. "Where did you go during school?" Cordelia asked. Faith just looked at her and laughed.
"Jezz Queen C, I love you too," Faith said stepping into the house and closing the door behind her. Cordelia softened.
"Are your parents’ home?" Faith asked looking around. Cordelia stepped up behind Faith.
"No, they are in Mexico," she whispered into Faith's ear and wrapping her arms around Faith's waist.
"Oh really?" Faith replied turning around in Cordelia's embrace. "What are we going to do about that then?" Faith asked huskily. Faith placed her hands around Cordelia's waist and slid her hands down to Cordelia's ass pulling her closer to her.
Faith, in one quick motion, lifted Cordelia's hips and wrapped Cordelia's legs around her while passionately kissing her. Cordelia moaned into Faith's mouth.
"Up...stairs," Cordelia barley mumbled.
Buffy looked everywhere. The bronze, Faith's house, and couldn't find her. She started to worry that something awful had happened to the other girl.
Faith walked backwards till the back of her knees hit the edge of Cordelia's bed and Faith fell back wards. Cordelia fell right on top of her. Faith just wanted to forget Buffy. Forget about the pain she felt, to forget how badly she hurt and missed the blonde. Throwing herself at Cordelia would hopefully help that. Faith flipped Cordelia over and kissed down her neck.
Thinking about Buffy brought tears to her eyes. She tried to push the thought of her out of her mind as she unbuckled Cordelia's pants and sliding them down Cordelia's hips.
Faith started shaking and stopped. Cordelia looked up at her. "What's wrong?" she asked. Faith stood up and rebutted her top.
"I can't do this," Faith said in a low whisper avoiding Cordelia's eyes. Cordelia scooted forward and tried to reach for Faith's hand but she stepped back, away from her. Cordelia looked up at her hurt. Faith ran her hand through her hair and breathed out covering her face.
"Faith..." Cordelia started. Faith held up a hand.
"Don't Cord. Just...don't..." Faith said dropping her hand. Cordelia noticed the look of pain across Faith's face and got up.
Faith allowed her to approach her and Cordelia ran her fingertips down the side of Faith's healing face. She cupped Faith's face in her hands.
"Tell me what's wrong, Faith...please," Cordelia pleaded looking into Faith's pain filled eyes. Faith didn't know what to do. She was hurting so badly. Faith broke down crying and Cordelia held her. Cordelia sat on her bed with Faith's head in her lap running her fingers through her hair as Faith sobbed. Cordelia was worried. She had never seen Faith like this.
"You know I love you, right?" Cordelia said stroking Faith's hair. Faith breathing hitched and sat up. This wasn't fair to Cordelia. Faith's sudden movement confused Cordelia. Faith sat there next to her and looked into her eyes for a moment.
"But Cordelia...that's the thing...I don't..." Faith lightly said cupping Cordelia's cheek. She didn't want to hurt her. Cordelia placed her own hand on top of Faith's on her cheek moving it away.
"What do you mean?" She asked hoping Faith didn't mean what she thought she meant. Faith took a big breath and sighed taking her hand out of Cordelia's. She looked back up to Cordelia.
"I'm sorry Cordelia...I care about you...but I don't love you the way you want me to," Faith explained as gently as she could. Cordelia looked at her, hurt spreading through her face.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you but...my heart belongs to someone else." Cordelia stood up abruptly startling Faith. Cordelia had her hands to her face and was crying. Her shoulders went up and down with every sob. Faith walked up behind her and placed her hands on her shoulders. Cordelia suddenly moved out of the way.
"Don't touch me," Cordelia said still crying.
"Cordelia..." Faith started. Cordelia turned around.
"Who is it Faith? Is it Buffy? I saw the way you looked at her and kissed her on stage! I forced myself to believe you were acting. You weren't were you!?" Cordelia yelled, tears streaming down her face. Faith looked at Cordelia sadly.
"Don't give me that look...just...just leave please...I...I have to be alone..." Cordelia said sitting on her bed. Faith knelt in front of her.
"Cordelia, please, I need you..." Faith started. Cordelia lifted her head.
"Need me? Need me! How can you say that after what you just told me!? I'm sorry Faith but just go!" Cordelia yelled curling up on her bed. Tears started to fall down Faith's cheeks as she ran out of Cordelia's house.
There was only one place that Buffy had to check. The Chase's place. Buffy turned on the road that Cordelia's house was on. She drove up the driveway and parked. Buffy still had her hands on the steering wheel for a while and then took her keys out and walked up to the steps.
Buffy reached the door and half hoped Faith wasn't here. But then again she wanted her to be so she could see her and talk with her. Buffy rang the doorbell and waited. After a moment the door opened and Cordelia was at the door. You could tell she had been crying.
Buffy didn't know what to say. Cordelia leaned on the doorway. "Looking for Faith?" she asked. Buffy just looked at her dumbfounded then shook her head yes. Cordelia snorted a bitter laugh. "Figures," she replied. Buffy looked at her confused.
"Your lover left here 15 minutes ago." Cordelia stated closing her eyes and rubbing her head sighing. Buffy mumbled a thank you and figured she would let Cordelia be and not question her. But before Buffy could leave, Cordelia caught her arm.
"I hope you're happy," Cordelia sneered. Buffy looked at her surprised.
"You won. She loves you, not me. She always loved you...I loved her first..." Cordelia started. Buffy pried Cordelia's fingers off of her arm.
"Don't touch me," Buffy said suddenly angry. Cordelia made it sound like she owned Faith, like she was an object that she possessed. Buffy jogged to her car hoping she would see Faith on the way back to the house. As she pulled out of the driveway she saw Cordelia crying, shutting the door.
Faith ran while she was crying. She didn't care who saw her. She had no one. No one else besides Dawn. Faith decided to take a chance and see if she could see Dawn with out running into Buffy.
Faith changed her direction and ran towards the Summer's house. Faith got there all in good time. Took her longer then she thought. She ran up the driveway to the door. She stopped...contemplating whither or not she should even be doing this.
The door suddenly opened and there, in all her beauty, was Buffy. Buffy had just returned home and was going upstairs to see if Dawn had heard from Faith when she saw someone standing on the porch. She was surprised to find Faith there, crying.
"Faith! Thank God," Buffy said as she pulled Faith into her arms.
